i feel like going cycling today. alone.

where you at?

i feel like a sine curve. high and low.

as one walks. one see s stuff and
well
today was strange.

last day of school. doesnt really feel like it.

physics was righty. not difficult. today seems quite smooth. save for math. where i kept hangng.

after school. took the bus and realised i wanted to go to the bike shop. alighted at normanton park there. walked to the church near the railway tracks (where 61 decides to seperate from 100 there) . and i saw the kindergarten playground. it was empty. come to think of it. i knew it was there. but didnt really see it before. well. yea. then onto the busstop. by then i was sweaty like crap. like evreytime i walk that route. and i took the wrong bus. 147. which brought me to commonwealth instead of queens. damn. cuo jiu yao cuo dao di. well. sat all the way to dover. and saw sharon when i alighted. strange day.

then comes the people. the strange girl that was sleeping on the bus seat. and the strange old man beside her. then comes the poly students who just graduated and fooling around with each other. and the girl who spends her whole day adjusting the guys shirt for him and smiling at each other. the person that's emoing over something, refusing to smile. the student who's so tired that just collapsed on the mrt seat and fell asleep. the messy people. or emo for that matter, covering their heads in the mop of hair. the army guy that looks like he's from ncc. the lady speaking loudly on the train in hokkien or chinese. and the 2 nurses lamenting "singapore singapore singapore our home" .. or smth along the lines.

the world is strange. the moment you think you got it all figured out, you most probably wrong.

there's the covalent the ionic and the oppositely charged. something like the tangent the parallel the asymptote. but nvm.


some choose to talk about their problems some choose to keep them inside.
its all a matter of choice.
what matters is picking up and going on.
today may suck. yesterday sucked even more. but there's always tommorow. and it will be alright in the end.


life. sigh.
and the friday is blue. like the week that has been.

argh.

strange. i closed my eyes and heard screaming.

strange. i closed my eyes and heard screaming.

my water bottle has went missing. again. strange.

电话卡没钱的日子真难受啊。随没什么人在sms我。

《红楼梦：themovie〉〉太精彩了。
want to sleep also cannot sleep. its like shut down and then start up again. keep restarting. whoo hongloumeng.

theres going to be another funeral near my home again. sigh. id have to reroute my way back to go past it. which changes the scene home somewhat. well.

• im still wading through the sea of mud and rubbish outside the mrt station
• down the same concrete path
• my chances of seeing the ice cream uncle would be cut by half
• i wouldnt see the unicyclist who appears on random days wheeling around. (maybe yes)
• i wouldnt see the girl with the big headphones and the jiggling pony tail that i see once in a long while. (today was the first time i saw her right?)
• i would still see the boys from yuan ching emoing their way home. (some only lar. i saw 1 today)
• wont see the person with hair in excess of 1 yanran in length..
• i would walk a long boring walk along the langkow. the very scenic one when view from some angle. but walk beside it look quite unglam. got apples and the sort floating around.

there are the days that people are emo. the days where ppl are amused.
today's pretty amusing.

david's picture during ncc presentation. cock up lar you. take picture of girl forgot to take out of your presentation. end up show us so many picture of that girl. wlau lar you. lol. david forever target girl one. tsuk.

hey got new show to watch on youtube. top gear :D. its about cars. and its british. :D quite cool show. so far. brit is cool.

oya. there was sweeny todd too. want a shave?

the ending is classic.

..
..

i cant find a word.

...

what if one day you came home to nobody waiting.
some people spend their lives waiting.
should one choose to be strong or just to laugh it off? or go in turn over and die?
either way. nvm.

and here i wait for a word. i'm not even sure what season it is. winter.
and i am nothing. a fool again.

its a dreary night that follows a drab day in another senseless week.

sigh.

if something was broken before it became whole. is it counted to be broken once or twice?

165

and im not feeling much joy. cant.
10 minutes was cut off.
football became "please check airflow".

i shall switch allegiance from rugby to american football for a while :D

the show sorta reminds me of "we are marshall"

smth like that.
"the kingdom" is showing on HBO. next screening tmr morn 7 am. :(
see if i can wake that early. been waiting for that show since i saw the preview.

when you like something so much and yet not at the same time
"an error occured, please try again later"
damn you youtube. again you try to ap me. im starting not to like you yknow? show me some good videos and good downloads eh

ROD is near. retirement soon. :( fast.
retirement from my job, that involves screaming swearing and shouting, intimidating people specialised torture, playing with minds, tearing people down and building them up again. strange job. but its a job. my job lar.
maybe after this i can change back to a normal person again.

and then came rudy.

forgot to add this. thought of it during the run

"fall as much as you need to. just keep running."

today was quite a good day for running. my legs were in a good mood. though slower than usual lar. but they were sorta happy to run.. quite long never run quite shiok.

and i flashback to last year marfch camp. the year of the LSKs (lao sai kings). epic still. lol.

soul power have you

lol
denzel washington movies are rock.
like american gangster the last time round.
the ap attitude.

lols

anws. its gonna rain yea. and ive realised again that maths is the key.

one can tell when the exonomy is bad.. when jewellry shops start giving out flyers to school kids....

random.
facebook is going siao already. send me 1092 emails

i've realised it is not worth to sacrifice geography for physics.

ah. 160 post.

可让全公司来调整吗？ ， 职员中士？

ah. 明天又chem,有时好玩的一课。记得巨人。

两个yi今天没来。

aozhou

一直在想有什么歌是无法pictionary出的
i have-
- Jenny
- Mardy Bum (confirm nobody can one. unless spelt out. nobody knows what's mardy in the class!)
- this never happened before (small chance)
- Arthur's theme
- Brianstorm (can draw singapore, a book, and then a thundercloud, but i dont think the class gets it)
- seasons of love (numbers cannot draw right?)
- something (absolutely vague)
- Never gonna give you up (whoo rick astley. internet meme. or as jeffry says, "never gonna chao you up (or was it twice?))
-

my mind's blanked out suddenly. mild headache.

argh.
every morning.
　

sleep more than 45 minutes at night
so you wont be emo and giving blank stares all over the place into space.

i am hungry.
self explanatory lar.

scs seems to be the only happy thing so far.
...
my brains very much fried. to survive on 45 mins of sleep.

mm. strange how the body just takes the punishment.
my forehead's still sunburnt.

yes.

my wish didnt come true. and i still overslept in the end. well

going out gives one inspiration

and a couple of gai nian also.
1) ruoling is nuts.
2) ruoling is nuts.

etc.

yar.

uh. ok. i forgot what i was about to say.

ah. sexy is ded.
watermelon and stuff are the new ones.

V for vegetables.

its almost three in the morning.

and those three words seem so strange all of a sudden. the best and yet the most deep and dark, strange. to scream it from the rooftops yet to be silent and brooding in the darkest corner. weird. this blogpost doesnt seem to go as planned.

its this thing about movies, that reminds people of the best in life, and also the rest of it. its one of the only things i guess thats able to bring out such a range from one. suddenly one is divisible again. so divided but yet so same. seprate but together. together but lonely. it reminds us of stuff that we did, and things that we shouldnt have.

shining through.

a film where the german bad guys spoke german among themselves, but english to the good guys. Persepolis is melo. or rather seems so. melodramatic. black and white. i liked the story quite very much.

it seems that life is about stories. the story of life. black and white or a gradient across the spectrum? or somewhere in between. some may find the answer. some dont. others just dont know how to. how? one will never know. sometimes one finds a point where it isnt sure whether happiness or sadness if felt. maybe we all just fall through the cracks. such is life. or is it not?
people share to keep. but yet at the same time keep to share. one mans sufering brings about a greater joy. vice versa. taking from someone to keep it for someone else. fair?. its all a matter of viewpoint. people around can think what they like. but do they matter? matter does the people around and thsoe that you care for. there is love all around the world. feel it open the eyes and breathe it. i rarely not finish a book. but herein lies the exception. nvm. feel the world. nvm.

a bunch of ramble. before tommorows day. or rather today. halfway through the second quarter of the day. on top of the roof. where the water is. ; figure and maybe a miracle will happen.

theres nothing much i can do but pray.

to pray and wait.

drab day?

nothing much to do
HAWX demo download is out. (whoo. )
but it takes ages to download. (18days and 21 hours i think)
least i found the ubisoft version (56 mins ) woots

emm.
creative writing isnt really nice.

should i go for wos?

VCDs are nice to watch in the room. but not when you fall asleep because their too boring, or the fact that you couldnt sleep the previous night letting your brain run all over but yet reaching no conclusion. damn creative writing. im not creative

mm.
change blogskin later today perhaps. chineseing now. :(

nothing much to say now.
but i wish i could give you a hand.

till then i shall wait.
等待能可是一种幸福

i cant continue life like this. whatever happened?

...

saw this on youtube:



obama sorta reminds me of bryan tan. least in the video.
nvm.
doesnt matter right?
..


it never really matters.
or mattered.

nevermind. if it did mind in the first place.

i just realised. 151 posts. long way since then.

a weird thing yearning to scream from the rooftops yet to hide in the deepest corner, silent and brooding.

ehm. book quote. good one.

physics was a false alarm today. (but there's still the next 2 days)

its quite strange watching girls shop. its fun to try on stuff. but to go for many hours ... is abit of pushing it? (lucky nvr experienced. least not recently)

oh. i saw selina today. quite blank blur looks both ways.

tired. its weird when one blogs; for one thinks of all the things that he can write on the way home, but forgets them all once the page opens up. thinking kills.

what is happiness? doing the right thing or doing what one really wants to do at the streak? its strange. knowing that something is wrong and yet still doing it. and still regretting. at the same time, to not do it; would mean one regretting it forever. just what is the thing to do here?

realised that there are terribly few blogskins for guys. even this one is weird. i preffed the first one i had. simple and clean. but. nvm.

now i have 1+0.5 workstations alive. just set up the old machine in my room. but its so slow that i can work on it barely. and thus the 0.5. well least i get word processor functions and relatively fast internet..... but laggy like prawn on the other sections of the com. maybe can pull it up to 0.7 or more in about a week. once i had time to sort out the systems and run all the virus scanning apps and delete all the junk. . well. now i can watch videos in my room too :D. whoo. 14inch screen ftw. panasonic home entertainment system speakers ftw too. ... though the com is hooked up to the cd music player with just a normal mic cable... sound quality is patchy at most still.... but hope can iron out....

our school is quite efficient. in marking. (or minusing marks for that matter). math is screwed as far as i know. makes it harder for me to try appling for the ppl. well.sigh. have check the regulations still. should work hard for next test and maybe can use those results for my application.

mmm

im tired.

speed is a relative thing.

take for example , computers.

my first computer was relatively fast for its day. win 98 and all. but it got slower and slower over the years :(. till it was godly-ish slow.

then came the second comp. was godly fast. till after 3 years. where it ground to a halt. (now i can click on the menu bar, go to the toilet , go to the fridge, come back, just nice the menu bar open up)

then came the thrid comp. (whoo custom build). godly fast. pwns all. still quite fast, and godly compared to the previous 2. but within the next 2 years i most probably would find it slow. its starting to lag a little.

but there goes. speed is relative. get used to the slow, and the middle pacers seem unbelivebly fast to you. walah.

quite random.

ehm. spent the da dismantling fans. old fan. two speeder , blade diameter about 10 cm? it couldnt start up. opened it up, cleaned its inside. and tried again. the shaft could turn by itself. but beyond that, putting the fan blades back on, it ground to a halt.

i think the motor burned out. over heating caused the insulation laquer on the magnetic coil wires to melt i guess. well. so now i got a new motor. whoo can do projects. but first have to figure out how to keep it running and cool at the same time. the whole coil gets super hot after a while. dont wanna burn it out again.

i think its a bad habit of mine. dismantling things too often.
but getting better at it. least the stuff still works when reassembled.




its a dismantled digicam if you dont know. :D

i bet there are a thousand and five hundred and ninety nine other posts screaming the same thing today.

but well. for the sake of being one of the masses.

.fourth!Romance is the designer.
Inspiration from Exuvalia and mintypeach.