texas.

i once knew a girl like you. but she's gone now. long dead and forgotten. so is my heart. gone and lost. she meant the world to me. but now she's gone, she doesn't need me. in her eyes you see nothing.
my heart is gone and cold. its broken. heartache.

a love that could not be. a flame extinguished. a love which never had the chance to flower. a love that was cheated again and again. but held on. but that love is gone. for it was never meant to be.

emptiness.

the girl that i loved. the person that i treasured. is gone. leaving just an empty heart. and memories which are meaningless to her. she has gone forever. and destroyed my heart. gone like the wind. never to return. the light has gonefrom this life of mine. the light that has kept me going all this while.extinguised. i trusted you more than my own. and i dont regret it. for i had no right to love you even. but for you. i wish you the best. i wish you will find your happiness. for i am leaving. leaving your life. cause you are no longer the one that i know. love is a terrible thing. all the best.

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"when the day comes. the day when the shit hits the fan, and hell freezes over, i will only have one comment. : 'Ain't life a bitch?' "

It turns out that i have never really mattered to you. to you i was only a substitute. but why. it wouldnt have really mattered to me if you did not like me. though i think otherwise half the time. im confused. but i just want you to be happy. you have given me my happiest moments and also my saddest. when i was sad, i always thought about you first. but it seems that you didnt really care about me at all. its hard to accept. i tried to give up. but i cant. why. someone please tell me.

Elton John- Your Song

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside

I'm not one of those who can easily hide

I don't have much money but boy if I did

I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no

Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show

I know it's not much but it's the best I can do

My gift is my song and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song

It may be quite simple but now that it's done

I hope you don't mind

that I put down in words

How wonderful life is while you're in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss

Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross

But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song

It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do

You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue

Anyway the thing is what I really mean

Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen
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For some reason, i like that song alot.

although i do not know why you thought that way, i would really like to know. but if you're not comfortable with telling me about it, im'm fine, if ur happy, i'll be happy too. you're what that matters to me. when i had a bad hunch, and i couldnt contact you, i was anxious. though somethings you do have hurt me deeply, no matter how many times i have said that i hated you, beneath that, i still care for you. i don't want you to get hurt. it's painful to see that happen.

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crapps. what have i gotten myself into? i got pulled into another project by Yap again. slapp that stupid guy.... this time he brought bingle too. lols. 1 year lehhh. 1YEAR!!! tt's how long its going to last!!!!. n teacher oso said tt she might extend it to 3 YEARS!!!

xiao arh