You crushed me.
Broke my will.
Hurt me.
What else can i say?

it isnt what it was anymore. it is a battle now. a battle with no end. a battle with myself. hopefully its an illusion. but i dont think so. why. Why must it be like that . What is love. what is infatuation. dont know. what is idiocity. i am idiocity. i have wasted me time. wasted on a hopeless cause. wasted on what i thought was worth it. i just wanted to know you. but never really got a chance to.or maybe i have really become the monster i am. its my fault. sorry.
This is a nightmare. no wonder i dont sleep well. once again . DuSchwein. please dissapear and dont return. stupid memory.
the day when you slammed that door on my face. happened to be the day when my old friend came knocking. came online. and i had chatted with her for the first time in 2 years. was it your plan. to crush me when i was happy. or was it just a coincidence. i believe that its an coincidence. cause i never realli tod you the whole story. the whole story. for i did not want to put you off. maybe thats why you thot i can put it down so easily. cos i been thru it. but i guess you will never know. for im not in a position to talk anymore. the sentence had been given before a statement was given. maybe yes. maybe no. maybe its because i was really wrong. so i was. im sorry. but i never really got a chance. maybe one day you will read this. or maybe onedayy i can get back my courage. to do what i had never really dared to do. out of fear. out of experience. out of studpidity. or maybe i wont be so idiotic to try again. i really dont know. but i believe that only time will give that answer. or maybe that it was already decided.
but sometimes i hope. that you never read this.

Higher than usual. why?

how does $150 sound? it sounds good. and $150 is what we won.

("we"- implys me,Yap, and possibly tianqi and yujie)

all this money is courtesy of Senoko power company, for we have been nominated by the judges for the finals
pls cheer and clap enthusiastically !

btw. i have just thot of the word enthusiastic, and have recalled one of its most funni misuses i hav heard of, it is,

"please flush the toilet enthusiastically after use"

am i supposed to smile and laugh while i flush the toilet? pressing the button with much enthu? n keep pressing over and over?....mwahahaha... f33l so noobish here.

"be enthu in everything u do" tt's another phrase, so lets just flush toilets enthusiastically, sleep enthusiastically, and walk enthu-ly to school. :D


anws, no post of mine is complete withoout emo rite? so tehrefore, after the line below, i shall dump all my "enthu-ness" some where else, and start talking about emo stuff. XD DX

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People, the tree of which i so respect, has grown new leaves, possibly signifing a new beginning? or mayb something old coming back to life? something which has haunted me for so long? has it come back? has it returned with a vengance? or is it purely just a bunch of leaves? what should i believe? and what shld i not? is everyting a lie? an illusion? are you an illusion? do u exist at all? or are you just some weird product from my imagination (note: made in Kendrick)? or is the whole world an illusion?

allow me to end this emo portion with something lame,(lame qns)
"is David an octopus?"
I expect that we all know the answers ourselves, but some things are best left unanswered, and forgotten, in the sands of time, and in the cold of the snow (did i mention ice kachang too?)

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once again, this post shall be concluded with a famous quote,

" only the wise will know the extent of their ignorance."
i shall add to tt, with my own portion
"those who dont know are just ignorant"

"V" is for victory.

today went for OM compet. won fourth prize. but RGS owned everybodi else.

saw xue wei there. gladys too.

thou we arent goin to US of A, we are still Happy! ex happy.

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monday is prize presentation!

some things just seem to stay in your memory.. no matter what.

what she said to me when i was in p4 is still in my mind. as vivid as it was. so long ago. reali sadening. reminds me of the bad old days. days that i dont want to return to. to a time where i liked her den.

but that was so long ago. in another school.

but the memory is still there floating around in my brain. staying there for good.

why cant i forget?why must i do things your way. why cant i cry? why cant i try to forgett?

haiz. feeling sadder and sadder this few days.
everyday can onli see. but cant talk. .
lols.
cant speak when im wif you. reali weird.
but i will still hold on
please wait for the day when i can get enuf courage to talk to you. properly.

for the world is getting warmer. due to global warming, and weird comments being made by our Roti Prata, FangQi.

well. there's this phrase i cant get out of my mind. but i reali like it awns,

" it's a fool who plays it cool. by making his world a little colder."

well, its true, for some ppl in this world.

oya. there's oso this thing i cant get out of my head.
its sumtin called the Cheshire cat. for some reason, this character makes me sad.(it's from alice in wonderland" )
reali dunno why.
"i've seen a cat without a grin before. but never a grin without a cat."

maybe its because of the cat dissapearing at will. disappearing and bewildering everyone. disappearing without a care. maybe tt's the reason.


well, here's the time for the parting quote:

" Aber hier ist eine disko, wie kann nicht bringt eine schwein in der disko gehen auf"

go figure.

today went to watch mr bean's holiday, rather ok show. but abit lame though. but this is not thoday's topic.


today's topic is roti prata.

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roti prata
-a flat roughly round shaped disk
-edible for most people
-usually yellow
-can be mixed with curry
-unrelated to sushi
- usually used as a form of food

roti prata very nice
ate it this morning
for breakfast of course
lols
sianns now
still cant think of a topic good enuf to type abotu now.
spending my time revising chem.
can think of a topic tt wld not be too emotional too. lols




-heal the depressed, thorugh Mr Bean. (although he makes fun of them, too)

.fourth!Romance is the designer.
Inspiration from Exuvalia and mintypeach.